HERE WE ARE AGAIN

Well, well, well...Here we are in 2018 and I have just deactivated the facebook's for the EXACT SAME REASONS that stated in my blog from 2015. Like, I'm shocked I ever wrote the previous one because I am literally back in the SAME PLACE. The social media shit is fucked up and since my 2015 original post, I joined Instagram, which I also deleted today. I became incredibly cognizant of the way my mood changed when I logged on, how suddenly my circumstances and accomplishments weren't important or exciting and didn't mean as much as this person's or that person's, and dear god, MY DISDAIN for all of it, for all the people, for people I've loved and called friends. People are entitled to be into what they're into and celebrate their lives and selves any way they want - Honestly, most of it I love, but sometimes things stab and sting and trigger and it's so unnecessary. I don't need to feel it and I don't want to project it. The other thing my husband and I noticed that is GROSS, is that we began thinking in terms of what to post or how to post and how it would look and CONTENT - thinking this way is not normal unless you run a business and way too influenced by a fickle audience, too rooted in other people. SO.

Dan and I have a lot of changes coming and are making exciting plans for the future. We need focus and positivity, and blocking out those distractions and comparisons seems like a real healthy step.


I'd like to keep up this blog, because I like expression and imagery on an online forum, and this seems more personal and it takes more effort. Both good things.